11 Months Sober - Update

 11 Months Sober - Update

(Then VS Now)

Eight Months later... I am back!!! How are you? I guess sobriety hasn't cured my flakiness, aye? What an eight months it has been. So much has changed. 

Firstly and I guess most importantly, I am still sober!!! Over 340 days, so close to one year. I just know that 1 week sober me, is so damn proud right now. I am coming up to my second sober Christmas, which is crazy. In the time since we last spoke I have:

- Had my first sober birthday.

- Been back to Butlins.

- Lost just under THREE STONE in weight.

- Gone back to college to redo my GCSE's.

- Continued to explore my love of books/reading.

- FINALLY started therapy!!!

To name a few things!

Going on this journey, has given me such a new lease of life. I truly feel like a new person. I have aspirations and goals. I have been able to change other parts of my life that have been making me unhappy for a long time (such as weight.) The fact that I have been able to stay away from alcohol after years of struggling to know when to stop, to not give into it on a bad day and with using it as a coping mechanism, is something I never thought I would've ever been able to do. To have celebrations such as Christmas, my birthday and holidays sober is a true blessing. I am so excited for what else my sober future will bring.

Of course, it hasn't been completely smooth sailing. Nothing in life ever really is. There are still days when it's hard and moments when a bottle of wine calls to me. For me, life is a rollercoaster and on the loops and lows, I still crave a drink or a night out. However, my want and need to be sober, is way stronger and telling myself things such as "one day at a time" and "have a drink tomorrow" (knowing that I will say the same again tomorrow until the craving has stopped), has been such a lifesaver in the wobbly moments. It all really comes down to how badly you WANT it for yourself and I want sobriety BAD!

I am not usually one to be positive in life. I am not someone that easily recognizes the good that I've done or see's the good in myself as a person but I have searched every inch of this journey for the positive and I have found it. I am proud of myself, SO proud of myself. Gratefulness is also huge for me right now. I am grateful for my support system, for my strength, for this sober community and for sobriety itself.

This space has made me hold myself accountable, has held my hand and has guided me through the hard times that I have faced during the last 340+ days. I am SO grateful for all of it and for all of you. Truly.

(BIG heart & kisses for you guys!!!)

That is all from me today!! Thank you for being here and for reading about the last eleven months. If you want to contact me or to follow my journey some more, you can find me on threads and insta as @imsoberpositive !! I would love to connect with you, to know what you think of these blogs and what you would like to see next.

I don't know when my next post will be. It may be at 1 year sober... but no matter what, I hope to see you there.

Until next time,

Keep going & remember, one day at a time.

-P x

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