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Sobriety in 2024!

HAPPY NEW YEAR SOBER FRIENDS!!

"Did you know every battle that you've had to face, is making you bulletproof." - Fletcher

 Above is a quote from my favorite singer Fletcher. I am seeing her for the second time in 2024. We were meant to see her in 2023 but she had to reschedule. I met her the last time I saw her, it was one of my happiest moments. Her music has been a huge part of my healing over these past few years. I haven't told much of my story that isn't to do with being sober. I want to do that today. I'm not comfortable going into too much detail but I am gonna sit here, write and see what flows for me emotionally. Don't worry though, there is a point to sharing this, so strap in for the ride, haha.

 I got my first ever big girl job when I turned 18 and fell in love with a coworker that was eight years older than me. I moved in with him at 18, married him at 19 and divorced him by the time I had turned 22. He was ill and I was his carer, I was very young and thought we were in blissful love. We were not. He did me very wrong, I did a lot for him and loved him but it wasn't good enough. That relationship left me traumatized. I was a complete shell of myself and the heartbreak was the worst thing I had ever, ever been through. It was worse than the relationship, I was left with nothing. I started acting erratically and had no regard for my health or for my own safety. I then, at the end of 2022, met my current boyfriend. He was like an actual angel. He came into my life, told me he chose me and continued to choose me every single day from that point on. I bet you're wondering why on earth this is even relevant, let me tell you...

 As you can imagine, the last four years have been... a lot for someone so young and trust me when I say that I had my issues before all of this. With all of this being said, 2023 has been my year of sitting with my trauma and beginning the process of moving forward. It's funny because you'd think that healing is the easy part, right? It is not. This year has broken me down a million times over. My drinking journey has been the most up and down it ever, ever has been. I took way more day's off from drinking, but binge drank more than I ever have before and the effects of the alcohol have been the most emotional and awful, that they have ever, ever been.

 One of the best things I have done this year is start my journey to sobriety. This journey has given me the most peace. I have so much more time to look after myself and my mental health, to fix relationships that mean so much to me and to make lots of new sober friends. I want to continue all of this sober goodness into 2024 and beyond. I cannot wait to say at the end of 2024, that I have been sober for a year, through the birthdays, holidays and all the other social events. I want to prioritize friendships, love and being happy again. I want to attend sober events and to celebrate each milestone with the people I love around me. I want to meet Fletcher for a second time and tell her "I think I'm growing too." (Song reference.) I am hoping by my 1 year soberversary, that I have a sparkly ring occupying my left hand ring finer (wink, wink to my boyfriend who proof reads every post for me, I just know he is laughing right now!!) I will have a new sibling too, I am really hoping for a brother this time, but hey six sisters would be a blessing too! I want to be me again, whoever I am, I feel like I lost her so long ago that meeting her again will be so refreshing.

Some other smaller goals that I have include;

- Reading more books than I did in 2023!

- Staying hydrated. (I am awful at drinking water!)

- To learn more about sobriety and to meet others on their journey's.

This year, like many before it, has been a massive challenge for me. I keep saying that I am ready to retire from all of this trauma and I truly am. I don't want to carry it with me anymore. Beginning my journey's to sobriety and better mental health, is the start that I have needed for a long time. I am beyond the definition of strong and I am so capable. Especially with all of the amazing support on and offline. I really hope that my story and telling it, can help even just one person. We have all been through and go through some shitty times but we are all incredibly strong and can get to a good place... together. <3 

I hope you have the BEST nye!!!

That is all from me in 2023!! Thank you for being here and for reading about my year. If you want to contact me or to follow my journey some more, you can find me on threads and insta as @imsoberpositive !! I would love to connect with you, to know what you think of these blogs and what you would like to see next.

Until next time,

Keep going & remember, one day at a time.

-P x

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